Travel Back In Time

如果可以回到過去，你想要回到哪一個時間點？

昨天和KA去探索公園的時候聊起了一連串 what if 的話題。每個電影對 time travel 有不同的說法，科學上也有各家的理論(*1)，我比較相信回到過去是心智靈魂進入了以前的身體，而不是未來的自己可以遇見過去的自己，而且我相信回到過去可以改變一些小節，但在時間線上的大方向發展仍然不變。

記得幾年前有一陣子心情很低落的時候，常常哼起一首歌裡面的一段歌詞，「那一天，我哭了一整夜，也知道，我回不到過去...」。那個時候沒有想太多，只是覺得自己做了很多錯誤的決定造成一連串荒唐的結果，如果可以回到過去一定能夠變好。但現在事後想想，如果真可以時光倒流，我真的想要回去嗎？回去重新來過結果會有什麼不同嗎？

也許我比較宿命論，雖然我同時也同意牽一髮而動全身的 ripple effect，但我莫名地相信，不論過程如何地峰迴路轉，最後仍會殊途同歸。認真想了很久，要選擇回到哪個時間點我還真的說不太出來，我們幾小時邊走路邊討論的結果，認為回到過去的用意在於避免一些後見之明認為不該做的事情。我強烈認同這一點，但又不禁對人性抱持懷疑。在現實生活裡我們對很多未來會發生的事也並非完全不知情，然而個性使然，即使預見不好的後果，卻依然任憑它發生。在有時光機的世界裡，有了對未來百分之百的資訊，但我們的個性足夠堅強只做「對」的事嗎？

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KA說想回到二００三年九月，問我有什麼想交代告訴當時的我，我想了很久，現在的我有很多事情想告訴二００三年九月的我。那年我大四，是個多事之秋，後來的一切是那時種下的果（絕非甜美之果但也說不上是爛到完全不能吃的果實）。一直以來我以為如果可以回到過去，我一定會做個大幅的轉變，把人生重整一番，走一條完全不同的路。但是當這個問句活生生攤在眼前時（講得好像我們真的有時光機），我猶豫了，非常地猶豫。不論是宿命論使然、勇氣不足以嘗試別條路，還是這個爛果吃久了也久聞不覺其臭滿自得其樂的，我沒有太多話想說，只想告訴那個涉世未深的我，"Life is tough. Brace yourself."。

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(*1) Time -Traveling for Dummies: A physicist's looks at The Time Traveler's Wife

Addiction ‧ Indulgence

Recent articles show that Multitasking, Internet Addiction, and Internet Seeking could be dangerous and harmful to our brains. I was terrified. I have exactly same symptoms as described. "Searching for information you don't even care about", "chatting via instant messaging while checking email and surfing the Web", and "being anxious without Internet". Those are pretty much my daily life. (In some sense those articles were kind of entertaining while I was being terrified.)

In one episode of 【Grey's Anatomy】 about addiction, a remark goes like this

Bad habit comes easily but hard to be kicked away.

I think the hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. I mean, we get addicted for a reason, right?

They say you don't kick the habit until you hit rock bottom. But how do you know when you are there?

Indeed.

Addiction is bad. But indulging oneself in an addiction is even worse.

Byebye Jail

The picture on the front page of my blog is a view from the temporary shelter of economics department, Condon Hall, a gray concrete building some people call a jail(*1). Everyday after work I walk out of the building, I see the bus stop under the trees and wonder when my ride is coming and starts me a new journey.

Now we are about to move back to our home, Savery Hall, located in the beautiful quad on campus. The computer lab is going to be closed today. Everything will be moved out and brand new computers await us at home. Sitting in the lab looking through the large windows with views blocked by the gray concrete wall, I know I am going to miss it.

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(*1) Condon Hall used to be the Law School building. It got the reputation of being the most ugly building at UW. People joked around that the jail design of the building tried to tell law students what consequences their future judgement would lead to.

星巴克儲值卡

剛剛發現一件事情，之前居然都沒想到。一張星巴克儲值卡用一次接下來一個月可以一天用他們的AT&T WiFi 兩小時，但如果我同時維持有兩張卡兩個帳戶，這樣我每次來星巴克唸書就可以用上網路四個小時。四個小時就非常足夠了，可以工作整個早上或整個下午，我似乎也不太可能連續唸書超過四小時。

不過只能用兩小時也有好處，就是我會有效利用時間，時間一多我就會開始瀏覽和研究不相干的網頁，例如像現在開始寫blog。

我的反應果然變差了，這麼簡單的事我居然之前都沒想到。

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在台灣時好像比較沒辦法在咖啡店唸書，尤其是念需要思考的東西。一方面是台灣大部分的店裡大部分的人都在聊天，氣氛沒那麼適合唸書，另一方面是因為我可以把英文當背景音樂，不仔細聽不會太瞭解別人在講什麼，但是如果旁邊的人用中文聊天，就算沒興趣的話題也會很自然地開始聽。

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實驗結果發現，其實就算只用一個帳戶，兩個小時過了之後，只要不登出或關機，網路還是都不會斷。

This Week's Agenda

The agenda for this week is, again, work work work. A never fulfilled routine but still need-to-be-made agenda.

One different thing this week though. Here it is: If I work hard (defined by myself) for a couple of days in a row, I can take one weekday off for a movie marathon. I am going to see The Time Traveler's Wife, (500) Days of Summer, and Star Trek. Maybe not Star Trek, the theater I want to go doesn't have Star Trek anymore. I'll find another one to fill in.

My reward seems too big for tiny little effort. But whatever.

戰況空前

暑假看了很多影集，有的是新開發的，有的是之前看一半沒追上的，如果以季為單位，不分是哪部影集，我應該看了五季以上，換算成集數，應該超過百...。

算一算，九月一開學我應該會很忙，不是因為要教一門新的課，也不是因為論文要趕進度，而是現在趕上進度要和電視同步收看的影集包括

1. The Big Bang Theory (Season 3)

2. How I Met Your Mother (Season 5)

3. Brothers and Sisters (Season 4)

4. Grey's Anatomy (Season 6)

5. Scrubs （目前還在Season 7，還差一點才會趕上秋季的Season 9）

還好現在電視公司都會把剛撥完的影集放到網站上，不然我每晚光握著遙控等著時間到就夠了。

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事實再次證明，越忙的時候越有空做閒雜事，兩年多前閒閒沒事的時候，花了一整年才把【The West Wing】七季看完，而以上1、2、4和5都是今年才開始看的。

Angel and Demon

In the days that I work, I can stand up as a decent human being. But in those days I dodge doing my job, I feel myself nothing but a terrible person.

They say people do not need others to justify the existence of oneself. Pathetically, I do need hard work to justify myself.

Free Wi-Fi at Barnes & Noble

剛意外發現 Barnes & Noble 有提供免費的 AT&T Wi-Fi。因為現階段研究需要連到學校一個研究中心的 terminal server 用 Stata，雖然喜歡在咖啡店唸書，但常常受限於有些咖啡店沒有免費網路，或是網路訊號不強。

傍晚跑來 U Village Barnes & Noble 裡的咖啡店工作，一開始只連到一個訊號很弱的網路，正想說都特別跑來了卻又什麼事都沒做，就連 AT&T Wi-Fi 看會不會貴，沒想到居然免費，真不錯。查了一下，是七月底才開始的。以後有空可以來這唸書。

適合睡眠的氣溫

Cold Temperatures Improve Sleep

研究指出華氏60-68度（約攝氏15-20度）有助於睡眠。西雅圖很多時候都是氣溫攝氏十幾度加陰天，難怪我隨便都可以睡上十小時。如果斜對面那棟房子可以趕快蓋好會更好，不要每天一大早不到八點就開始動工，擾亂我的美夢。

今晚氣溫攝氏16度左右，正是適合睡覺的好天氣。經過上星期的高溫摧殘之後，現在非常欣慰有這種涼快的天氣。

最近太陽下山的時間從之前的九點開始提早到八點半了，盛夏好像就這樣過了。

Bookmark

I used to save articles of New York Times in New York Times' own bookmarking system. Then New York Times no longer had the bookmarking function and my files were transferred to the suggested bookmarking site, Furl. Now Furl became Diigo. Even though Diigo provides the migration of data from Furl to Diigo, somehow my old files in Furl are all gone.

Things change too fast for me to get used to. Now I'll give Delicious a try.

Crazy Global Warming

What's wrong with the places I stayed? My hometown Hsinchu and my second hometown Seattle have broken the records of high temperature last week. Both reached around 40C.

I am not the person who can stand the heat (I am fine with cold weather). Last week I felt dying in my top-floor apartment facing the west with only an useless but annoying electric fan. The long-lasting sunset made my room a sauna. I couldn't stop sweating and even had difficulty of falling asleep. Growing up in the windy city Hsinchu, I've hated wind for my entire life. But I felt very grateful to have some breeze later last week. I finally got to have some sleep.

Back-to-School Gadgets

Incase Nylon Backpack is one of the 25 best back-to-school gadgets selected by Time magazine. It seems to have several compartments with different functions. I don't really need that many pockets though. I usually bring only a laptop, a cellphone and a wallet. Not so many gadgets I would like to carry around. What attracts me is actually the mustard color and its comfy material. I usually don't buy yellow stuff. But this mustard color looks cool.

I am an adzuki-bean/heather-grape color addict. Sometimes I buy stuff just because the color is attractive, regardless of their usefulness. I just can't say no to things with certain colors. Like they should belong to me.

Anyway, the bag is little bit expensive. I need someone to talk me out of it ...

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I've decided to abuse my blog, by writing this kind of non-article nonsense. It helps prevent me from abandoning my blog.

我在西雅圖的飲食癖好: Happy Hours

在美國很多餐廳傍晚和晚上打烊前都會有特別的減價時段 Happy Hours，有些平常價格不便宜的海鮮餐廳也會推出這種減價時段來吸引顧客，很適合像我這種收入不高的食客去淺嚐美食（說是說淺嚐，我還是常吃得很撐），最常去的幾家包括在 Downtown 碼頭的 Elliott's Oyster House、離學校不遠的 Ivars Salmon House，和在 Ballard 的 Matador （上圖）。

夏天是去 Happy Hours 的好時刻，坐在 Downtown 碼頭， Lake Union 旁的 dock 上，點上一打的生蠔，或是各式炸海鮮，配上冰涼的啤酒或檸檬汁，或是在有異國風味的 Ballard 街頭，吃上一大盤的 Nachos ，實在是物美價廉的享受。有時候中餐沒吃等著下午三四點去 Happy Hours 中餐晚餐一併解決，不過常因為空腹的狀況下啤酒下肚，食物還沒吃完就開始有點微醺了。